Gift to Teach God’s Children.I wondered why I had such an amazing born again experience and other Christians don’t, I use to think that it was because I was whole hearted but now I have come to believe that it was a gift so I could teach others what happens when you get born again; especially to those who don’t feel it, or experience it. Every one of these events were given to me to be able to teach His children that it is finished, that He has done the work and to teach them how to realise it and live in it (to awake, rise from the dead). After the cafe bar where I seen beams of light coming out of only the Christians eyes, [side note: every time God has showed me something supernatural, angels etc… He has given me the immediate natural confirmation to confirm it, e.g. In a big room full of everyday people I seen the beams of light way before I knew these were Christians and that we were going to talk with them]
Didn’t want to be a Christian
Anyway after the cafe I went to Glens flat about 2:30am, he had a few Christian mates over, Glen said “do you want to give your life to Jesus”, If I knew I was becoming a Christian I would not have done it. I didn’t want to become a Christian, I had no interest and no desire, and no conviction to become a Christian – only to say sorry to God.
I had always believed Jesus was Lord He just wasn’t my Lord, when I’m 99 I will make Him my Lord so I can get to heaven. When I was a teenager I had the filthiest mouth, I would swear as easy as breathing but I would never take the Lords name in vain.
Anyway all I knew is I wanted to say sorry to God, somehow I had this kind of picture of Him out the back door of a house, it looked like a sea side batch my Nana had (this holiday house represented my life and attitude), anyway it was cold and dark and the door was locked, God was out there shivering, trying to keep warm as He was waiting for me to let Him in. (of course God doesn’t shiver or dwell in the darkness, but these are all prophetic imagery to describe the situation) I was so sorry for leaving Him out the back door of my life, and I wanted to say sorry with all my heart.
Getting born again
Glen said to me “do you want to say a prayer” (I never told Him what was going on in my heart) He said “say this prayer after me”, I said “no I want to say my own prayer”, so I sat there with my eyes closed, I was about to say a prayer when this little voice inside of me said, “don’t say that, God knows you don’t mean it”, so I never said it, I waited then a prayer rose up from within my heart, I meant it with my whole heart, I went to say it but I started choking, I couldn’t get it past my throat, something was trying to stop me verbalizing it.
Immediately Glen and a couple of his mates laid their hands on me and bound the devil, instantly I was free to pray the prayer that had risen from my heart. I said “Lord Jesus….” the second I said, “Lord Jesus” something came out of me through the left side of the very top of my head. (I use to think it was a demon or something, now I have come to believe it was my old life, my old spirit).
The same moment that something was coming out of me something came into me, the thing that came into me came in through the right side of the very top of my head and flooded through my body, rushing around every part of my body at a million miles an hour. I looked down at my palms, it felt like my blood was flowing around my body at a 1,000psi. It felt like there was a tumbler of ice cubes in my stomach going over and over incredibly fast.
I was instantly brand new, fully alive, fresh, clean, guilt free, unashamed, amazed. I never expected that to happen and I wasn’t looking for the forgiveness of my sins. The first words I said was, wow “I have been searching for this my whole life and I didn’t know I was even looking”, and the second thing I said was, “everything else is worth nothing in comparison to this”.
Glen said to me, “you have eternal life”, but I didn’t care about that, his words didn’t mean anything to me. All that I had discovered was God was more exciting than everything else in the whole world put together and I wanted to follow Him for the rest of my life. After that we went out at about 3am and got a burger and I witnessed to my first person about Jesus. Glen said I could stay over and use his room, I remember going into his bedroom closing the door and speaking my first words to God as His son… I said “Hi Lord….” A brand new life talking to his father for the very first time.
Points of interest
Point 1. I got born again the second I said “Lord Jesus”, the bible says, No one can say, “Jesus is Lord,” except by the Holy Spirit. (1 Cor 12:3)
Point 2. I still can’t remember what I prayed to get saved all I know is I had an whole hearted desire to say sorry, not to commit my life to Him and not to become a Christian. It was not a head thing only a heart thing – I just wanted to say sorry, and I meant it. It’s interesting that in evangelism today we teach Christians to get sinners to repent to become Christians, to say a prayer, so they can be saved and have eternal life, none of this meant anything to me, I would have not done it for those reasons, I wasn’t repenting for all my sins, I was repenting for the way I treated Him, ignored Him, pushed Him away, didn’t allow Him place in my life, for I had sinned against Him. Surely this is what true evangelism should focus on, reconciling ones heart to God.
Point 3. I’m not sure if this is the quickening of the mortal body, but if He took my old spirit at that moment I died, and when He came in at that moment I was born again.
And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness. But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwells in you. (Rom 8:10-11)
Point 4. When you get born again, Christ applies all of what He did at Calvary for you, feel this experience or not. Its the miracle of the death when He kills you, the miracle of the burial when He removes you, and the miracle of the resurrection, when He makes you alive again in Him. The bible always talks of these events in past tense, you were crucified, you were risen.
For you are all the children of God by faith in Christ Jesus. (Gal 3:26) this event has happen to all who have their faith in Him, to them who have received Him (notice I didn’t go out of my way to receive Him I just believed and repented).
Hey are you getting this son or daughter of God? Awake to your real life, its now, its finished, totally complete, a life that is in Him. Literally in Him not in old you.
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